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Poetic Divergence

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The Invisible Rulebook A Poem by Eric Pollok A simple “Hi,” a casual query, A gesture meant to welcome, light and cheery. But in that flash, a world unseen takes hold, A social quiz, a story to unfold. No script prepared, no answers in my hand, A pop quiz sprung, across this foreign land. They smile, they beam, they wait for warm reply, While inner chaos fills my anxious eye. Not anti-social, not a heart of stone, Just seeking calm, a space to call my own. This rulebook vast, by others memorized, A foreign tongue, by me still not surmised. “How’s your day?” a question, light and brief, For me, a mountain, steeped in social grief. A mental Rubik’s Cube, blindfolded spun, To guess the answer, ‘til the day is done. What do they want? A joke? A thought profound? I search for clues, on unfamiliar ground. One wrong move, and I’m the awkward one, Who mumbles weather, then is quickly gone. A silent film, where every subtle glance, A coded message, in this social dance. They me...

please understand me

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When someone I don’t know greets me whether it’s in a store, a hallway, or just a random encounter on the street I know they mean well. I get it. They’re trying to be friendly. But instead of feeling welcomed, I feel like I’ve just been handed an impromptu social quiz that I didn’t study for. “Hi! How’s your day going?” they say with a big, beaming smile, expecting an enthusiastic response. But here’s the thing: I don’t know you. I don’t have a script for this interaction, and I definitely wasn’t prepared for a pop quiz on human connection while I’m just trying to buy some bread. Instead of feeling like I’m part of a warm, fuzzy community, it feels like someone has just placed me on stage in a play I didn’t audition for. Suddenly, I have to perform. Should I smile? Nod? Do I make small talk? How much small talk is appropriate before I sound like a robot? These are the questions that flood my mind, and honestly, it’s like trying to solve a Rubik's cube while blindfolded....